Diary 12th December 2015

What a busy day it turned out to be.

I was initially supposedly go to the Dublin Ukulele Group or Collective. However I couldn’t find em. So I quickly checked the Facebook page. As it happens due to the weather, they cancelled it. Now when I went in it wasn’t too bad. However I since learned the weather was really bad earlier in the day when I was in Bed. hahaha. So I took the Opportunity in actually getting a bit of the Christmas shopping. As Ailish later on said and Dad always says to me, Christmas ain’t gonna wait for me. So that said, I decided to continue USING my Rent money. I had told Dad yesterday that I do have the Rent cash, which at the time, I did, however Christmas is around. So I went around firstly down the Christmas Stalls on Henry St., then came back up then headed to collect my bike to go and “collect” my Christmas Dinner. However it wasn’t to be as they didn’t have any to sell. Then I looked around and found some fabulous items. Like my Vegan Butter, i see was there, my Violife, awwwww yeahhhhhh. I then headed on off to the Christmas Market outside the Bank of Ireland. Looked around there. On my way to collect my bike, I went to see if Edmund, Evelyne and Glo(Gloria) from Vegan Ireland were there with their stand of Anti-Fur against Barnarndos selling fur. So as they WEREN’T there, I decided to ask if the cute bunny rabbit is made of fur. I went in their with a shameful face of a betraying back more so, and at the same time, frightened that one of Vegan Ireland might catch me in their. When I went in their, all I could see was dead animals with the amount of fur. Considering its a charity shop, I thought they’d sell ANYTHING, like my sis’ teddy which I bought from St. Vincent De Paul, was sold into St. Vincent De Paul hence where I bought it. So when I learned that the bunny rabbit WAS made of fur, I was totally distraught. So with that behind me, I then continued onwards towards the north of the city. Looked around.

So then when I was finished with all the looking and shopping, I came back home, afterwards, wrapping up presents etc.,

Then afterwards, I headed up to Ailish n Noel’s as pers schedule. We had a great chat. We chatted about their family and my love or more so pining for em, like Kathleen, etc., etc., Then when Ailsih asked about my birth Mom, I started to get a bit agitated nothing major of course, but still. I asked if I were to be diagnosed ewit whatever, would they think anything differnet and when Noel said “You’re one in a million”, I felt so wanted, in all my life.

So witht aht said, I headed on back home. heheeh.

Diary 21st November 2015

Today was a fairly quiet day. I was going to go to the cinema, however as they’re ain’t that much films out at the moment, I wasn’t gonna go and bother. hahah. As I said to Ailish n Noel that Cineworld is gonna be packed to the gills with all the Geeks and Nerd etc., etc., for Star Wars film. hahaha. So that said, I decided to head instead to Ailish n Noel’s instead. However that said thou. When the alarm went off at 8.15pm, I turned it off so that I could get up at 8.35pm, however for some strange reason, I couldn’t find the phone, so I looked at my other phone the Lumy reported the time at 9.07pm, so what the hell happened, like wtf. hahaha. SO I got up at 9.15 instead and apologised to both of em, like I still fail to understand what exactly happened. haahha.

So with this in mind, I headed on off to Ailish n Noel’s as part of my monthly schedule. We chatted had a lovely Lemon sponge Cake. ohhh it was heaven. mmmm. Then part of the chatting we were yaking about Dad’s brother and my sexuality. I had said that they literally are Anti-Gay and possibly would never change. Although as Alish puts it, if I were to be around them like I was with Mom’s side of the family, then perhaps, but no I’ve no plans on coming out to them. Although only a handful knows like Maura(Dad’s sister in law) and Criona(Dad’s Sister’s daughter aka Niece). I was trying to recall what his relatives were saying about Gay people, of which I couldn’t remember. I then got talking about Christmas and she brought a wonderful memory of whereby on the 8th Dec every year, Dad and I would do the Trimming of the tree and Mom n my Sis would go to into town for pressie shopping. Everytime Dad would be righting cards, I would be very board. There was no such thing as Facebook let alone Internet. So when Dad would be doing the cards, I would be thinking to meself, awww wanna do more decorations etc.., etc., I told them of my “two new jobs”, they understood like Mom n Dad yesterday that if there’s NO basic wage, then it ain’t secure. She even thought if it were legit. hahaah. Ailish told me that Michael Gill called up to her father Brendan. And what a reaction I got. I hadn’t heard his name in years. hahaahah. He had called up to Brendan on his way to the airpor. I asked how is he related to Brendan. He his Brendan’s First Cousin aka Michael’s Mother and Brendan’s Father are brother n sister.

Diary 5th September 2015

Woah what a day it turned out to be. hahahah. When I rang Ailish for to confirm for tonight’s monthly visit, I hadn’t received a text, So I rang them, I was to meet them for half 8. So then JUST before I headed to sleep, I got a panic attack as to whether to shower BEFORE Ailish or AFTER Ailsih. So I decided to shower before Ailish. However, thou that said when I got up at 7.15, I was unable to. So I got eventually at 8.35, (I know I know – hahhaah).

So afterwards, I headed to Ailish. We had a great chat. Twas wonderful. I was very happy to hear of Brendan’s NON-Demise meaning he’s on the mend. He ain’t going anywhere hahaah. I then told her of the brawl that was ongoing. She was so feeling sorry for me, “But there you’re family, George”. ANd I said I just can’t on my concious. KNOWING I am in the RIGHT. As I said to my sister in the past, it would be different, If I were int he wrong, yeah I’d probably would “would be licking”, some boots etc., But I ain’t. If my Pops hadn’t gone on about Westwood at the time, I wouldn’t be so hurt or whatever. I even told AIlish of the “so called Restraining Order”. She has advised that I stay the hell away from my Mom. Because chances are from my brain, I will be beatened up by the Stepfather. I am very happy over hear in IReland. I would love to meet my Mom someday, however I think I value my life more so than some maniac running after me. My Mom in Romania signed a Legal Document in Ireland known as Restraining Order kinda thing. So I connected with Ailish on an emotional basis with her. Noel was asking about Windows 10. And how to go about Upgrading etc., I explained how to go about it. heheheh.

So then I came back home, and after a wonderful night both Ailish and Noel, I headed for my next event. However this time I went for showering this time. hahaha. Then afterwards, I was about to get ready. Well I for one was NOT ready what I experienced. Now I’m unaware whether my sis saw me or not. She claims she didn’t cause she assumed I was sleeping, however its obvious I wasn’t. Cause first on my FB I had checked into AIlish and Noel and not only that AT LEAST my lights were on. My sis was chatting to someone, perhaps her Aunt. For reasons of unknown I cannot divulge exactly what my sis was talking about, I assumed it was myself. But as I said for reasons that I cannot divulge what I don’t know, I shan’t be publishing such content. Like this is about MIDNIGHT. Someone opened the gate, I went to look out. ANd was quite shocked to see it was my sis. Considering what’s been going on recently what was she doing there? Then not only that my MOM came down. Now what the bloody hell was that about. My sis asked how did Mom know my sis was at my place. I was shocked by the whole thing. I can assume my Dad was around, as I had heard Mom saying something to my sis. So to some up, why was my Sis there???? at midnight, why was my Mom there at midnight????

So afterall that, it lasted only a few minutes, I then kept sketch to ensure no one wasn’t around. So then I set about my next event. ehehhe. I was to go to the Boilerhouse’s Event known as Steam. I’ve never been to the event. I then on my way, was looking at a flag, couldn’t figure out what country its from. I’ll try and describe it to you. The flag is Rectangular, Its literally a Red Cross so meaning there are 4 White boxes. Thats it. Thats the best I can do. ehehehe. So when I arrived, at the Boilerhouse, I was advised strongly to mention that I’m on the guestlist. So instead of getting in for €22, I got in €15. I was ecstatic. Then afterwards, I did my usual. I searched for the actual Steam event, It was actually in the bar area. So overall my night at the Boilerhouse wasn’t the best however at least thou there were these three hot guys who are about late teens early 20s. heheheh. ONe of them kept falling thou, possibly drunken or whatever. hahaah. He had such a boner. mmmm. That was hot. But the falling completely turned me off. It was very busy tonight. heeheh.

Then afterwards, on the way home, seens as Boilerhouse let me keep some more cash, hahahaah, I decided I’d try the Butty from Midnight Express(Review here). It was totally delicious. I got myself a cup of CUrry sauce for the Butty. mmmm. It was heaven.

So overall I totally enjoyed my night with Ailish and Noel, with the Boilerhouse, I wasn’t pushed. So my fear of sex is still occurring. Which I ain’t not sure why.

While looking at Everybody Loves Raymond, there was an interesting episode of which featured a very interesting point. It featured the character Robert as a Cop. One of his duties was to conduct an IQ to a person as a test subject whereby dthat Ray and Debra were given scores and then there were arguments etc., etc., However then Robert comes back towards the end of the episode stating that the IQ test was carried out Psychologically speaking to see what would happen to the suspect as a test object. I found it quite educational actually. Quote from Robert – the character literally sums up this point. “The real test was about HUman Behavior, like how a suspect would act if you mess with his self image”

Diary 7th August 2015

Well today was my first day without the Citizenship application etc., So I was to head to Ailish and Noel’s as they are busy tomorrow. So I said I’d go and see Ant-Man(Review here) and then onto Ailish and Noel’s. However it wasn’t to be, as I was exhausted mentally and physically especially physically from all the getting up early bit etc., etc., So I eventually got up and then headed up. I chatted about the Bray, Powerscourts, Veggie Meetup in Milanos(Review here) and in Sova Butcher(Review here) yesterday.

Diary 13th June 2015

Shortly before I went to bed, I was checking my sex Facebook account, I was checking my messages. I had 3 guys blocking me, just because I wanted to add them. haahha. They first messaged me, then never gave me the opportunity to go and reply to them. One said “Who are you”, and other guy said “No of course not” something like that”. So I in my wisdom replied with my NON-sex account the gstanescu84, says to them

A bit pathetic for to block me. I wasn’t stalking you or any criminal offence or whatever. If you don’t want me to add you JUST grow a pair of balls, and reply with what your mother reared you with known as in Ireland as MANNERS

And literally BEFORE I shut down my lappy, I got a last minute message from one of the guys who blocked me on my sex account and says “Ok, sorry”.

All I want is respect, nothing more nothing less. I’ll give you respect if you give me respect. Takes two to tango. hahaha. As one of the pop singers sings as sung by Mercedes(I really looked up to her) from Glee R.E.S.P.E.C.T

SO with that said, I headed onto bed, after I awoke, I heard a doorbell of which I thought was my sis. So then I got up eventually around 10ish. I was due to go to my meetup of officially Eoin’s group Cineworld Craichead. However he wasn’t going to the iMAX version of the film Jurassic. So instead I signed up to Adam’s(oh yeah u know who he is, haahah), But he was going to the iMAX version. I really wanted to see it. So I said, ill put on my big man boots and face him, if needs be. I initial plan was to say my hellos and goodbyes to the Dublin Movie Maniac(Adam’s group) and then wait for a few minutes for the Craicheads. Their film would be on later than Adam’s.

So then my plan was to head  up to my folks then back to cinema to go and see Survivor for quarter past 11.

I was suppose to see Ailish and Noel however it wasn’t to be, Ailish feeling up.

But all the above was collapsed in that, I didn’t go out AT ALL. Awww noooo. I just can’t face Adam. I don’t know why. So I stayed on, I was too late for both films. So I said I’d leave it. I then said I’d head to see half 11 iMAX of Jurassic, but then I wouldn’t be sure if the food be opened. So as you can see I had a very undesicisive day. haahah. Then lastly I asked me mate Todd, if he’d like to join me, for the film. As it happens he had bought a gadget so he was too in his comfort zone, so I said I’d leave it.

So all in all, after all the will I, will I or won’t I, I decided NOT to go out at all. So I saved myself about €24. Cause I need that for to get Patch and Sammy’s new pet, Father’s Day pressie. So I enjoyed a nice takeout my Mom had dropped down to me. haahah


Dublin’s Iconic Clery’s Department Store has closed suddenly yesterday evening. It was bought over by a real estate Natrium Ltd. These days, like Dunnes Stores, you’re NOT gaurateee a life job anymore. I was recently advised its like the American style of jobs. Its on a SHIFT basis. So hopefully the iconic store will reopen in due course. It suffered a major flood. It is 160 years in its existence. It opened in the 19th Century.

Van Morrison has been knighted by Her Majesty The Queen.

William Butler Yeats a well loved poet, is celebrating his 150th Birthday. He was born in Sligo. A year long celebration has been launched.

The farming sector goes pink in a bid to raise for breast cancer. The Bales of hay are being wrapped in pink. Normally the bales of hay are wrapped in traditionally black .

Republic of Ireland drew against Scotland in a bid to qualify for the Euro 2016 Qualifiers.