Diary 19th December 2015

Today didn’t pan out the way I had hoped.

I was due to go into NARA(National Animal Rights Assocaition) leaflet handing of Christmas REcipes IDeas in St. Stpehen’s Green. However it wasn’t to be as the Alram never went off the time I wnated.So I saw the time being 13.42, I said that’s far too late. We were to meet at 1 and then they disperse. So yeah by the time I would have got in, I’d be lost.

My next plan was to go to Vegan Infomation Table in Westmoreland St., So that liekt he above reason didn’t pan out either.

Then the next plan was to meetup with Edmund, EVelyne and Glo aka Vegan Ireland at their usual stand, however that wasn’t to be.

So I then with all the above plans collapsing, I decided against getting stamps for teh Irish cards.

So then I slept on, had a hurrendous dream where my favorite character in Ros na Rún Séamus Mhicil Tom who is played by Diarmaid Mac An Adhaistiar gets killed with heating floors. I’m in a room, and the floor is over heating. I see someone noticing the bump on one of the floor tiles. So I see teh character. I shed several tears for him. Diarmaid himself thou passed on recenetly in July of this year. ANd for this year’s Christmas episodes, Ros na Rún will be laying Seamus to rest ie writeing him out of the series.

My sis called down with Mom, to hand me a takeout. heheeh.

So with that in mind, I eventually got up after such a horrendous dream as I said, then I did more self harming in the means of scraping the OTHER side of the letter ‘M’ I scraped on.

So then I got up and I got ready for the PLAN of the night. hahahaah. I was to meet Eoin and the gang for to see Star Wars: The Force Awakens(Episode VII). Although before hand I was to go to the Outhouse to go and see if I can see Joyce to hand her her card. However I had gotten Joyce and Severn mixed up, which was a shame, as I couldn’t give Severn his card. He was totally embarrassed thou, god love him thou. So then getting back to Star Wars, I was gonna go to Down to Earth, however it wasn’t to be as time wouldn’t be on my side. heheeh. I then headed to meet the gang. Then we all headed on up to the most aniticapted movie in the unvierse. heehehe

Diary 18th December 2015

Today was not bad a day. Although the day started off with me doing a bit more self harm, obviously not as severe thou as the recent events. However firstly it all started when I went to take a leak heheeh then I saw that as I had eaten bacon(I think) that I could not live with the guilt. However I had throughout the day yesterday felt crap etc., and continued on the night etc., I just had to release my emotions somewhere.

So after a horrendous start, I then got ready and dressed. Then I was to head up to Mom n Dad’s to go and give them their presents. It was lovely. heheheh.

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Then I continued on to meet Barry, however on the way, I learned it wasn’t to be. As he had only come home late if I recall. So then moving on, on the way to the OUthouse, there was a car ie a Taxi to be precise. THere must have been a  deb or some forme of party or even a hen. or wathever. But the poitn being is that the car was forawrding etc., adn stop etc.,e tc., So the taxi driver was stopping the car, and srtaing ie costing it as if the car was in a beating music kinda. I said to them AFTER I apssed them, WEIRDOS, haahahah. At least the taxi. jhahahahah. I headed to the Outhouse. ehehhe. My main aim was to give out more cards. When I arrived, there was great buzz. I was overwhelmed. Yesterday was very emotional for me, hence the self harm above, that said I was delighted with today’s events. ehehehe. When I arrived, I was wanting to write cards, and realised that I had left my cards n behind. At first I thought I left them in Mom and Dad’s but no. So I quickly left to go and look for em. I was Penny’s NO, I was in EuroGiant, NO – although I did get a Christmas Tree(3 ft high – awwww). I was in Aldi’s and when I went to pay, for my cards and the convery belt started to act up. Possibly teh salesperson was leaving the foot on the pedal. I ain’t sure. hehehe. So I said to her that it probbably is a Software issue. hahaha. I then headed back to the Outhouse. Whereby I enjoyed further laughs and talks. Michel who also is patron or whatever. He thought I had left for to go upstairs to Men’s Night. When I arrived, Patrick and a group were in the Cafe. I asked has Men’s night moved AGAIN hahaahah. Patrick said they’ve split. heeheh. I took that as serious to the point I thought all the night that Men’s night was JUST men’s night down in the cafe. However when I asked if Bernard is around they told me they’s upstairs, whoopise. heheheeh. I then went upstairs, and wow theys’ there are. ahahaha. Was great seeing them all. hahaah.

So then we all were kicked out. hahaha and then afterwards, relaised my grey scarfy has gone missing – ohhhh no!!!!(Character from Family Guy – the Jewish guy). I looked in the Outhouse, rang Mom n Dad AGAIN!!!!! haahah, no not their. As Homer Simpsons says “Oh, Scarfy, where art thou!

On the way home, I wanted to get pics of teh Star Wars themed Dublin Spire. heeheh

Diary 17th December 2015 – Dad’s Birthday

Today wasn’t too bad. Although it was by no mean any better, but at least its something.

My day started off with my heart outta me mouth literally. Like the Sabrina epsidoe whereby she has a Secret Admirer, and her heart is literally beating OUTSIDE her body, (now oblivious not the real heart – ahaha, that would be just grotesque. )

Anyways moving on as one would say, Mom collected me. I had checked my post. I received three letters. One from Social Welfare, the other two from friends for ie Christmas Cards., So I opened the Social Welfare, and it stated that I had not signed as per required. So then I opened the other two. I had received scratch cards. Then I scratched them and was shocked that I had won €25. Cause the last time I won so high was when I had gotten a scratch card from Colette.

So then onwards, and upwards, we headed onto Social Welfare. Today’s idea was to get a more clear idea. I was deeply disheartened when Mom was told to get out three times., I felt for her. Me heart was higher in me mouth as per above description.

So then afterwards Mom drove me back to her place. I helped Dad briefly with the lights in the garden. Then I headed on back to my place.

I got myself ready for the evening in terms of putting on my Christmas Undies and Jumper on. I couldn’t find the undies. So I put on others I bought in Aldis on Sunday. I then headed onto Store St., seeing as I said above, that I forgot to sign my signature. Then I went onto Aldis to get more cards. Then I finally arrived at the Outhouse. I was due to be at the Christmas Party between 4-6. However that said, the fact that I arrived slightly late, at least I had seen others, so I wrote my cards and handed em out. eheheh. Then I was advised that I go and get a secretary. hahaahah. In fact Patrick had reminded us that the politicians ‘ Secretary used to send us Christmas Cards. hahaahha. So then James who also their, was also telling me how Windows 10 had failed him when he went to upgrade. So for waht ever reason I was trying to comapre that he hates Microsoft, whiel I hate Social Welafre. He was most appolgoetic for the way he went on about Windows 10. I kinda understood what the acutal issue was. Something about Widnows 10 not accpeting his backups or whatever. So I offered him how about he go and download Recuva to go and attmept to recover the files. etc., So I shall also offer him Ubuntu in terms of attmepting to access his files as well. Searson was also their. Was great to see him. He wanted to see my self harm cuts. WHen I went to take my jumper off as I was getting warm, I several times attmepted to hide my self harm. THat said, I also didn’t care. So it all depends ont eh person.