Diary 27th February 2016

Today was quite and what a day or as someone would a MOTHER of a day. hahahaah.

WHilst going through the History of the Constituencies of the Republic of IReland, and in particular PRE-Irish Free State(now known as the Republic of IReland), I saw Queens County Constituency for the United KIngdom and Kings County Constituency for the United KIngdom. So I began to investigate this further. When I looked closer I saw the QUeens COunty is NOW Laois and Kings County is NOW OFfaly. How amazing is this and interesting. hahaha.

Looked at the election coverage for the whole day as well as the lead up to it. What I mean by that is I hadn’t seen teh current affairs in the LEAD up to it. hahahah. I signed up to Twitter’s SMS feature of which I thought I had it enabled. So that said I got an SMS saying that Eoin Ó Broin of Sinn Féin got elected. When I read it, I was so sure it was Eoin O’ Farrell my mate. ahahaah

So throughout the day, I got myself some grub as in dinner of which Sausage, BUrgers and LAsagne was on the menu. hahahah. It was unfortunate that I burned the sausage and burgers. Hahaha. I still ate them hehehe they ain’t cheap.

Diary 8th February 2016

Well today was a quiet day. hahhaha. Well as per my norm TV shows etc.,

I also was getting my dinner too. hehehe. Did a bit of tidying up as the rubbish was in my way of the Oven. So I got the cooking going. hahaha. However thou, I soon realise that the soup I wanted to cook up was frozen obviously BUT, that I wanted there and then. However I have to defrost it first. 😦

While I was doing a tidy up in the living area, I noted a brand new heater that wasn’t even opened. hahahhah.

Also It was my intention to start on the Reinstallation of Windows 8.1 but firstly Windows 10. However when I got there, I came across my Norton product I purchased in PC World recently. I was wondering the price of €39 instead of €109 etc,. So I looked it up Apparently I got €55 off as part of the January sales.

Then I was also gonna open up my new GoPro which will be used for recording videos of my whereabouts on the bike and then the Opening of packages like I did with my Lumia phone. hahaha.

I was going through some music videos and James Corden who has videos of Music artists with Carpools. When I go to Thumbs up a Video ie a Like in Youtube, I have it setup so that Twitter receives a tweet saying I have Liked a video. However on Facebook recently, it posts several times, and I just can’t for the life of me understand!!!!

Diary 18th October 2015

Today was quite an enjoyable day. Although I told my sis of a horrid dream of rape of a good friend of mine. As far as I recall, he was being recorded of being raped. And I went back to the perpetrators’ house and broke the tape by pressing a stop button and some other button. And my mates parents trying to tell me he was being raped etc., etc., Then the mate’s relatives got involved. Something to that effect. She saw it in my worry face. And I wouldn’t mind I had actually told myself NEVER go back to bed sleeping, how true is that. Like the reason I says this is that I was left awoken as my Lappy was left on the whole night as I was trying to download a very cute singer from Turkey whom I came across on a mates’ profile on Facebook. And also I was trying to do ……. So I had to leave the lappy on. While doing so I was struggling to sleep,, however I woke up for a leak and then went back hence the above dream. So then onto some pleasantness I treated my sis to some Vegan Home cooked Pasta and Tomato sauce. So she was doing downloading and I was entertaining her with some of comedy I had. heheeh namely One Foot in the Grave, Saved By The Bell and Taxi. My mom in the meantime came down with some food, and then after a few hours, I then headed with her to her place and then came back.

While looking at SundayAM on TV3, I only realised that Killian O’Sullivan who does TV reviews for the week, that it’s the same Killian from Fair CIty who played Lorcan(Carol’s son). He sadly was killed off from the show. He’s been on the TV3 show for several months, yet I only noticed today. hahaah. Nice one Stany!!!

Diary 8th September 2015


One of the dreams, I had was quite interesting, but at the same time troubling. I’m in a queue for a job or something. I’m wanting to apply for a job BUT while MARRIED. I ask about SameSex, the employer whistels a tune, and then I notice the word Jesus, so I just assume he’s a bigot and not a chance I’ll get a job.

Next and final dream, was most weird, but very disturbing. Its as follows. I’m on a bus tour with kids. This particular kid keeps messing and although we’ve arrived at our destination makes the bus go further down a road to a bridge. I with my Driving skills, step on the Gas(Accelerator). Even as a I right and recall this dream, its as vivid as if I were dreaming right this second. So I drive the bus back towards where we were suppose to stop, however we are forced to stop. We stop outside a restaurant and we notice the road where we were on initially is actually a place where Food is delivered to the restaurant. There is a crate(wooden) of lettuce and vegetables and then to wash the food it is emptied into the water then sent to the restaurant. I then see the food again and this time it is emptied and I exclaim: “What a waste of food”. So the food is emptied crates again and we see the road again, as the road itself is visible and turned around.


What a day today turned out to be. I had been on the Facebook before going to bed onto Darragh my cousin on my Dad’s side. I had apologised to him for my outburst last year for getting involved in my business on FB when he had said to me stop airing my dirty laundering on FB, something like that. I replied to him to Fuck off. So I apologised for that outburst blaming it on my depression. So then I also asked if I could re-add him as a friend on my Facebook. So he accepted and he asked if I could help him do fencing. I initially turned him down with a view of sleeping until it was time for my dole which An Post closes around half 5 and I wake up at five to 5. However my body woke up and 11.54am ie five to midday. I was rethinking of whether I should stay on or not. It was a lovely day out. So I got up. GOt a voicemail from Maureen saying that Dad was doing gardening of shredding, something like that.

So then I headed up to Darragh’s with a view of helping him with fencing. I initially actually messaged him on FB first. But no answer. So I just went up just in case he was sleeping or whatever or maybe he left the cell inside the house and he himself working outside. But as it happened no one was there. I even jumped up and down at the side gate to see if he was there. But couldn’t see anyone.

So then, I rang Dad to see if he wanted help. he said he had started if I recall. So I headed to my folks. When I arrived, Mom and I hugged with here being teary. Dad had nothing to say. We just chatted in general. I noticed that the garden had been done, but the hedge on the balcony had not been done. So I said what gives, Maureen had told me otherwise. So then I said that Darragh was onto me relating to Fencing. I said to Dad he hadn’t aged a bit. hahaha. So I just had a meal(back to square one – says I to meself). So in future, I’ll strictly keep to visiting my folks once a MONTH, like I do with AIlish and Noel. Like after all that’s happened, as I said to my sis, later tonight, I’ve lost all respect for my pops. He really pushed me. Just before I headed off to Darragh’s for the fencing, Dad asks me if I had enough money. Now he gave me €100 of which I gave to me sis, yet he asks me. I’m getting mixed signals……..

Darragh in the mean time, had messaged me saying the offer is still there. So I told Mom n Dad that I wanted to help Darragh. So back to Darragh, when he messaged me saying that he still is around. He was leaving his girlfriend Sarah to the Airport. So I spent a few hours with Darragh. Darragh had emigrated to Australia a few years ago for no jobs reasons. He’s home for a weeks. He had an encounter with his next door neighbor Maureen. He was helping a neighbor across the road with a leak in the pipe. The main reason I was half thinking of the fencing was one I wanted to sleep but on the other hand, I REALLY wanted to see him. Afterall, I haven’t seen him since he emigrated even before then. hahaha. It was really great to see him.

So then we finished up around 4.34. Just in time for the dole. Then into the Bank, while getting change, Brian who works in Kennedys was curious if all i’m gonna be getting is the change. So I’ll attempt to change in the future either from the Post himself OR when I go to put in Money into the savings and the TV License stamps.

Then SmallChanges. As Darragh paid me, I used his cash on food in SmallChanges. hahahah. Great shop it is. Got myself different flavors of Cheese VioLife and also enquired about SATCHED soup instead of Cans. He checked if they were vegan as there was no label “Suitable for Vegans”

Then I came back to watch a documentary on how the replacement Twin Towers that was sadly Terroisitically Attacked in Sept 11th 2001. It went to document how it all came about the World Trade Center Memorial and One World Trade Center. Twas quite emotive to look at actually. So then afterwards, I watched Mrs. Brown’s Boys. heheeheh.

I then headed to my sis. I initially met her in Centra to get grub for myself. We headed to her place. Had a grand ould time, full of laughter with Comedy of course with Everybody Loves Raymond and Golden GIrls. hahahah.


Alexander Pacteau has been sentenced to 23 years to jail. He was charged a month ago. He was charged with the murder of KAren Buckley. Karen from Cork, moved to Glasgow, UK a  few years ago for to study Nursing. She was on a night out. She disappeared for several days. She was found on a banquet after 4 days missing.

Transgender people or People who identify as Transgender can now get a Gender Recognition Form, following the passing of the Marriage Referendum in May, and the President signing it into law last week. The Marriage Referendum paved the way for Transgender Equailtiy as well. So now if you wish to change your Gender in the eyes of teh law, you must apply to the Department of Social Protect with a form

The makers LucasFilms who makes the Star Wars saga, has been given the all clear to continue filming more on Skelling Micheal in CO. Kerry.

Diary 23rd September 2014

PS This is an NSFW Post, ie NOT Sexual but of Self Harm content.

The day started off with a horrible dream. Which is as follows: Kathleen Doherty(Mulligan), whom I saw after several years last month, was hitting my head as in a HARD patting on the head. She later apologised but NOT profusely. Martin was hitting JP(Their son). I went onto Twitter(which is quite unusual as first, it ain’t my usual ranting place and 2, the characters limit), to rant out. I was heart breaking, and crying as the same time. Even crying as I was writing tweet.

When I woke up eventually around 4ish for the dole, My sheets were wet, literally. Now how this particular dream came about more than likely was that my Dad’s relatives were visiting them. I was invited up as was my sis. Now Jim(Dad’s relative) knows I’m gay, I ain’t sure about Jane(his wife), but this triggered the above dream. But as I explained to my sis later on today, I can’t understand why I would wanna care whether Jane knows my sexuality or not. I wasn’t sure of her attitude towards gay ppl or whatever. By right I shouldn’t care.

So then I eventually got up from such a horrid nightmare, and set about getting my dole. I then headed into the bank to lodge the cash in. Then I went to tescos, to get milk for my sis’ place. I provide my own milk. She drinks dairy. Whereas I don’t. I got a few grub. I FINALLY got the blades, the yoke that are disposable. I kept forgetting to buy em.

I then showered, after a long spell of not having such. I did my bits and bobs – hahaha. I was using my new blades that are disposable. I nicked meself on my hand twice. Now while it WASN’T intentional, I have to admit, that I felt so good afterwards. While it was extremely painful, I was showering the blood off, and any blood that was left(which wasn’t much), I just licked it off like Dracula(booohhahaahahah). Again it was extremely painful considering a layer of skin came off in two places on one hand.

On the way to Tescos, I then had seen Hate Crime from The Guest(Review here) and realsied what is the actual difference between Hate Crime AND Discrimination. From what I gather and understand, Hate Crime is relating to psychical and verbal, whereas Discrimination is in relation to the law and more so used in a company. Correct me if I’m wrong.

So then after the showering, I headed on off to my sis. I told her of the above ie the dream etc., When I was calling it out, I had on my phone, it read as follows: “I showered the boys off”. Well the laugh I got off it. hahaah. It was something else alrite. I tell ya that bit. As she says, It certainly made me laugh. Something  I needed. heeheh. Then I suddenly realsied that by me skipping the visit of Jim and Jane, that sparked my depression a few years ago. I had moved in a few months ago in 2011. Then a few months(Oct 2011), I got into a deep state of depression over the homophobic abuse. And now it happened again today. What does that say. Could it be another depression coming along. Considering I did have thoughts of self harm alrite. I just had a few things on my mind. Partially financially. Because I didn’t get up in time last Friday for Credit Union Gear Ireland sales event on Saturday then there was Lidls stuff I was to get on Monday(yesterday).

While cooking Pasta, I was wondering why it was taking an age to heat up let alone boil it. I just checked and actually had it at half the temperature for boiling. hahah.