Diary 23rd July 2014

After watching the news bulletins of the two nights, I continued watching the Current Affairs aspects of the TV showing. While watching TV, Maureen rang me. She started to sing Happy Birthday. Of which I detest to the core. Like I hate family singing to me. So in a fit, I just hung up completely.

Then I saw Mom coming down the steps. She wanted me to go up to em yesterday, even though I said no. I prob wouldn’t be up. But as it happens, I was still up. So Mom brought me up to their place. So while up there, I got a bit to eat. Dad was wanting to find out who was the guy who has a birth mark. He was thinking of Gorbachev a former Russian President under the ruling of breaking up of USSR. How we got onto this topic was I asked if Putin is gonna face the sanctions and get us affected or what. He doesn’t think so. So then I asked what was his deal. Putin wants of USSR back together. I then asked if Romania was a member of USSR. And he said yeah. In my mind, all I was thinking of was if Romanian were to be forced like Ukraine is currently, that I’d be thinking of my Mom(Romania), hoping nothing bad happened to her or anything. But as it happens, according to my Da, it won’t get that far, as some of Putin’s are actually pulling out or at least giving clues of unhappiness with his leadership. Mom was gonna and obviously with Dad, was gonna bring me out. However, I wasn’t in the mood. So Mom wanted to bring food down to my sis, so we we both headed there. I wanted to give her my food that I couldn’t finish. So I stayed with her for a bit.

So then I walked home. On a bright sunny summer’s day. I was wanting to go topless, however with the beer belly and such a hairy ie a BIG TURN OFF, I didn’t have the confidence. Perhaps tomoz when I hope to go out to Howth by bike. You’d never know. Little by little.

NEWS

Costa Concordio is on its final voyage from the Island of Gilio to Genoa. Its gonna take 5 Days. The 320KM Journey is its length. 12 Boats are towing it at walking pace, where its to be scraped in Genoa

Louis Lentin(Former Head of Drama, RTE)has died. Among the programs he Produced was Dear Daughter(The story of Christine Buckley’s childhood in Industrial Care & exposed abuse suffered by children at the hands of Institutional Care). He was 80

Flights from Ukraine have arrived and touched down, 3pm(Irish Time) in Amsterdam. 2 Military Aircraft touchdown at Eindhoven, Netherlands Airbase(Airodrone). Royal Australia Airforce. The bodies were returned to where they began their journey. The aircraft were provided by both The Netherlands and Australia; the countries with the most lost in the disaster. 40 Herses were provided and headed on off to a military hospital in Hiliversum They traveled in convoy. Its there is where the Identification process will take place, which is expected to take time. At least 160 Bodies are still in Kercheeve in Ukraine. Although some are still at the crash sight.

Diary 21st July 2014

I just remembered, that I can now recall why Johann Strauss’ Radetzsk Marszch means so much to me. AS well as its fantastic score, I remember that I got a Johann Strauss CD from my Mom when she was in Prague with her long time friend Joann(who sadly is with us no longer – RIP). I remember I was studying my Leaving Certificate(State Exams) in my bedroom and had the CD playing in the backroom.
I then headed to bed for my more frequent hibernations of late. I had thoughts throughout the sleep and hibernation. In that one of the thoughts were, that I would ask my Mom(Romania) what advice would she give when I underwent homophobic treatment at the time. My Mom over ere(KC), she says simply says to ignore of which I value it and completely ignore the naysayers. I would be however interested in what my Mom in Romania would have said. If of course she is supportive that is of the LGBT.
Then later on throughout the night, (of course, I’m still having thoguhts), I’m being told by letter and I get it translated that she’s gone. I naturally am devastated and attempt to take the “ultimate step and take me own life”(Mrs. Doyle – Father Ted(Going to America)) on a number of occasions and types of attempts: By bridge into water or injecting or the bus on O’ Connell or the more than likely bang my head til I conk out. and somebody finds me.
My folks ere attempt to tell me.  And I reply “So much pain”(Professor Charles Xavier(younger self of 50 yrs previous) –  Xmen: Days of Future Past)
I would like to remind you all or to recall how all this Mother story started for me. Lemme tell u a little story. It all started when my fathers best mate went. Father I mean the one here in Ireland. I started getting the feeling of being followed etc. constantly thinking of her ie my mom In Romania. Ie she perhaps wants to “get to know me” – Chris Salvatore(Eating Out 3 : funnily having a cam to cam session with Daniel Skelton). Then on Thurs during the Dawn of The Planet of the Apes movie I suddenly got this vision of a ghost-like human. I kept looking at it. Then I asked my friend later on if he saw something of the same. He said no. So ever since I have been fearing the worse, that perhaps my Mom(Romania) has passed on.


NEWS


The Bodies of the Plane Disaster have left by a refrigerated train to Karchev,North East Ukraine. There was a delay in realising the bodies of the 274 who perished in last weeks Air Disaster. Two Newcastle United Football Fan have been found to be on the plane in which it perished.

Diary 15th July 2014

There was no end to my dreams. Here’s just a flavor of what I have been enduring for the past 15hrs of sleep. From 7pm to 3pm the following day.

I am seeing a pic of myself as a kid and the guy in the middle is “Jimmy” and my sis on the other side. I learn a disturbing secret that Jimmy’s father murders his mother. I’m wearing a green top. I was acutally looking at my self as young lad.

I am at home with my folks and of course with my sis(AS ADULTS). WE are all looking at pics of ourselves when my sis n I were kids. When I see a pic or vid of myself I run out of the back room balling crying.

Its a possibility that both my sis and i have to b told stuff regarding our stay at the Orphanage.

Arrested and fined 150 of which the Cops pays for me. It was so clear as to being handcuffed. Not sure exactly the crime in question.

Maureen n Mom meet me in a restaurant of which I introduce porter to Maureen my aunty.

While messing with by sis in my gaf I cripple my bk that I need to lay on my back for several hrs.

While waiting for help, life passes me by. The nurse  wants me to point out the pain so George from Kennedys is in swimwear. I ask George to turn around and I show the nurse. One of the ideas or life’s mishaps is the idea of where I am going through a set of walls into a lonesome house. This particular house is in an area surrounded by a brick wall in a country side type. The freaky thing about this particular house is that I’ve dreamt about this particular house in the past.

Now from the back problem of the above, I go straight to a scene of whereby I’m in a hospital due to breathing difficulties. I’m at a corner when I encounter Richard and Hyacinth Bucket (Pronounced bouquet – hahahaha are filming an episode. I says to Richard “go long Richard”. He makes a beautiful dish of pasta of which he is blending. Hyacinth’s dish is a mess in that when she goes to blend, she pushes the wrong button or something as it is as if she pressed the button to release like slurry.

I then encounter Mary Byrne in a room. Mary sings a beautiful song and I congratulate her.

My old school principle passes me on the corridor. And my top part of the oxygen tank dismantles. I have struggling breathing. The principle helps to me to put it back together. And so I breath in the fresh oxygen of from the tank.

So after I woke up and eventually got up. I was looking at yesterday’s News Bulletins(14th July) when I saw Mom coming down the steps of the my place. So I went up to greet her. She was wanting to bring me down to get the Dole. I said that I’m going to see Mrs. Brown’s Boys: D’Movie with my sis. Mom says that, that may be cancelled as she’s got a headache. As it happened it was cancelled. So with this in mind, I set about heading off with Mom to the Dole. Mom was very disheartened to learn when I told her that I don’t want anything. I made a sorry ass of an excuse so that I don’t get cash or cheque or whatever for the phone etc., etc., You see, I first said to Mom that I have the tickets. She was so annoyed. She even said that the family “lack in communication”. She then put it that it don’t help when I don’t answer the phone. I had explained to her that when I expressed an interest in Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat Theater show that’s’ being put on in Bord Gáis Energy Theater in August. It never crossed my mind that she and Dad were getting me tickets. So with this in mind, she then asked that I be with Dad on Tuesday(the day before the birthday) so that he can give me a “cheque”. It was then found out actually that he wanted to pay for the phone IN FRONT of me at the clerk in town or more than likely in his local O2 store up in Artane. I later revealed to my sis, that I can’t allow that anymore. As he has told me that I need to “get my priorities right”. I find that horridly annoying. He probs mean well. But I just hate it to the coar. Everytime, he buys something BIG for me, like a new gadget or a new phone or whatever, he passes on a comment to the sales person. Which is HIGHLY embarrassing. I get this sinking feeling. He would say something like, “looks like I’m buying”. Something like that. So I got my Dole sorted and my banking. So Mom and I were arguing that I get a takeout. I personally didn’t want it. But Mom got it for me anyways. The 3 in 1 was absolutely scrumptious. But the Vegetable Curry, I wouldn’t be so quick or as me Da would say, “I wouldn’t be first in line” to get the curry.

When Mom left, shortly afterwards, I saw Maureen leaving food for me and for my sis of which I later learned from her, that I was to drop it down to my sis. We chatted for a bit. When she first saw my place, her reaction was actually interesting. “Jesus, Mary and Joseph”. I said Jesus isn’t here”. When me Da would say Jesus as in being annoyed with me or whatever, I used to say all the time, that “Jesus isn’t here”. He hated that. I said this to Maureen. She had a hearty laugh. hahaha. She expressed that the environment can cause Depression or whatever. I said “People cause Depression NOT environment”. She then told me the story of the Joseph and Amazing Technicolor DreamCoat. It was so interesting. I really can’t wait NOW.

So then afterwards, I headed on to see my sis. We chatted and had a mixture of TV too. WE were looking at the old episode of Two and A Half Men and of course Golden Girls. On the way I got sugar for her, and I saw different flavorings of Green Tea. So I decided to get em. We both tasted the Strawberry flavor. IT was so scrumptious. I expressed my dreams to her. She is very concerned. I also said that I noted that everytime, someone I knew very well or became close to, that I get into a deep state of depression, as occurred since last Thurs when my sis told me about SOD’s untimely death. So the two of us, headed on out to get a few groceries. So now I’ll be adding the Green Tea to my diet on a permanent basis which is SO cool. heeheh

NEWS

Junior Ministry or Part 2 of the Cabinet Reshuffle was announced by An Taoiseach, Enda Kenny. It was reported that the British Prime Minister, David Cameron(Conservative) announced his Cabinet Reshuffle of BOTH Senior and Junior Ministers(Secretaries) with this, he announced a whole “string of” women in his portfolios. However across the pond here in Ireland, The Taoiseach failed to do such. He himself brought in legislation to change this behavior of having no women in politics. 

Another controversy has arose now. In that newly appointed Joe McHugh TD has been assigned the Minster of State at the Department of Gaeltacht. Now reason being this person is a controversy is that he’s been assigned to a minstery of which he has little to no Irish.

Simon Harris TD(FG) – Minister of State at the Department of Finance

The youngest male member of the Dail, and the sexiest(heheeh) replaces Brian Hayes. Who’s gones to Europe. He was voted as Dublin’s MEP last May. 

Darragh Murphy(FG) – Minister of State for European Affairs

Paudie Coffey(FG) – Department of the Environment

Aidahaon O Riodan(Labour) –

Kevin Humphires(Labour)

Ann Phelan(Labour) Minister of State, Agriculture

Damien English

Michael Ring TD – Minister of for Tourism & Sport

Joe McHugh TD – Minister for State at the Department of Gaeltacht

Sean Sherlock

The following are the losers ie, they have been demoted.

Fergus O’ Dowd(FG)

Dinny McGinley TD

Ciaran Cannon(FG)(Former PD)

Joe Costello(Labour)

It is with great regret that Garth Brooks has officially announced that he will NOT be playing any gigs in Croke Park this Summer which was due to be held at the end of the month. Garth Brooks himself issued a statement “Crushed is an understatement”.

Diary 8th July 2014

My latest dream was centered entirely around my mother in Romania

My thoughts were i keep her as friend n adopted mom as my Mother. When my adopted mom passes on I’ll have a second chance of “mom”.

I’m with my ex Keith Christmas shopping. We encounter a worker of whom Keith knows. Keith was promised a water gadget a way back. There the worker initially refused. However we were topped on and homophobically attacked. One big guy had him down in a fucking position  hence why I shouted fuck off. I knew the guy Keith was in trouble with. The guy who refused to help him with the water the guy asks him were u looking for it a pipe. Now how my mother was brought into this is Keith had told me a thing or two. Ie he found her and found new information as to her whereabouts.

Then my sis comes round n says if comedy can wait. She was wanting help with something. But then saw that I was busy with Keith.

 

Then when I eventually got up and woke up. I showered. And suddenly further thoughts came rushing though my mind. I obviously come to my folks place up in Griffith Ave., and scream “GET ME THE HELLA OUTTA HERE” ie Richmond Rd., where I live. I have been having recent troubling dreams relating to my Mom in Romania. Dunno why??? But Mom(the one I call REAL mom as shes da one who fed me etc., etc., yeda yeda yeda., So Mom(Ro) and my REAL Mom get together and discuss matters. I then says, my Mom(RO) that you dumped me when you made a mistake or you were married at the time of having me. Thats what I was told. ie had an affair. She says, NO Thats not true. This also makes Searsons point make a bit more sense. When I told him that I given up when my Mom(RO) had an affair, he says that don’t make sense at all.

 

While looking at the News from yesterdays, I got a call from my sis to collect her from Crannog. I was met with a frosty reception from Senior Staff. Knowing they ain’t blind, they closed the door in my face. My sis then came out and broguht her home(my gaf). I got her a cuppa tea. heheeh. Then she headed on home to get a few errands to do.

 

I then got ready to get my dosh – hahaha. As I always do. Literally, I was within a stone’s through from the Post Office, when I realsied I had everything BUT my Social Welfare Card, which is required to get my Payment. So that was a big blow, as I was to see Mrs. Brown’s Boys D’ Movie(Review here) with my sis. So I rang my sis to let her know of a disappointment. So we made arrangements to just go to the Outhouse. I then went to home and cycled in. I introduced her to a few people: Sven(I’m told that ain’t his name: Just still can’t get it, heheeh), Bernard, David and Joe. WE were a bit disappointed after learning of Sven’s views on Bisexuality of which my sis is. He states that Bisexuality is to do with Personality and that they don’t care of the gender. Possibility a case of Biphobia(Fear of Bisexuals). As I understand it, Bisexuality is the attraction to BOTH genders, hence BI(meaning BOTH male AND female), a FURTHER divide in the LGBT Community. I went on to explain to my sis, that I might perhaps bring my homophobes over the coming months to the Outhouse in a bid HOPEFULLY change their minds for the Marriage EQuailtiy Referendum. I further went to explain to her, that as a member of the LGBT Community, that we have to do our own part as a member. So then we enjoyed a nice cuppa tea and for myself a cuppa green tea. I left her to the bus stop. I headed on home by bike and then walked to her place.

 

WE enjoyed a few episodes of Golden Girls and we looked at Muppets Most Wanted. Review here. While looking at it, I started to get my troublesome dreams of my mother in Romania coming back to me again. And of course the crappy Sweetenters that my sis had(as she hadn’t any sugar) hahaha, I was gonna go Sweetners route, HOWEVER, I don’t think so now. hahaha. I was very quite alrite while looking at the movie a bit distress or whatever. I asked her what were the signs did she go through when a few years ago, she was gonna go see her mother in Romania. She said quite surprisingly the same as me: The feeling of being followed and Dreams. I’ve been looking behind me an odd time, wondering if my mom is following me to see what are my interests etc., Then wondering what would become of me if I were to have found out that she had died by the time I would have found her. etc., etc.,

 

NEWS

 

A Company in Ashers Baking in Northern Ireland has been found to have discriminated to the customer who ordered a gay themed cake. The company which describes as a Christian Company.

 

ALL Gareth Brooks Concerts CANCELLED. All €32m have to be refunded. 400k fans will be affected. The Refund process will commence tomorrow(Wed). €50m will have been a blow to the local economy. Over 70k fans who were travelling from abroad have also been affected. Such a big blow to the country and local economy.