Diary 9th Febraury 2016 – Pancake TUesday(Shrove Tuesday)

Well after a dream of whereby I leave my Cineworld card behind while I’m very close to the cinema, and then also my Dad’s friend who is currently in hospital with a Brain ANurism. In the dream, he dies and I of course cry my eyes out in reality.

So then eventually I got up, as I had a few errands to do, such as getting a card for my dad’s Sister in Law Maura(Dad’s brother’s wife). I went to Scribbles first to get the pressie and card. heheeheh. I saw a few teddies, of interest, hmmm. However with the price tag, I said I’d leave it.

So that said I then headed off to the GP to get my Medical Cert. However as time was not on my side, the GP was closed which I was shocked as I thought it’d be closed around 6ish, it actually closes around half 5.

So then I headed on into town to get my sis’ teddys she wanted. Then I was looking everywhere for Vegan Pancakes. So I popped into Holland and Barretts in Ilac Centre and the sales person told me, that there’s no such thing, as Veganism ain’t as popular as Vegetarianism. However that said, I can still make them BUT I want it READY-MADE. hahahaah. Then afterwards, I then headed on up towards my folks. I had gotten a voicemail of my Mom, to come up to them for to have Pancakes as today is Pancake Tuesday aka Shrove Tuesday. I was looking everywhere for Pancakes and this reminded me of Sabrina who “I want Pancakes”, hahahaah. Mom reminded how Pancake Tuesday came about. It is a Christianity thing, whereby people give up something or do something they’ve been putting off on the long finger. In relation to Pancakes itself, its a starter to Lent whereby they eat everything before they begin the actual fasting at hand. Quite interesting to learn. haaha. Then I headed on off to my sis. We looked at Mike and Molly. Great comedy. hahaah

Diary 24th January 2016

Well what a night of health endurement I went through. It involved piss and cumming. Which the latter I don’t understand. I wasn’t even horny. I wouldn’t mind but I did go to the loo during the night.

So then I got up eventually. Looked at yesterday’s news. Then afterwards I got ready for to head on my long trail of going into town to go and get “Marianna” and my sis’s care bare and of course my two Birth Sisters. hehehe. I left at 17.18. I arrived at 17.40. So I was very close. heheheeh. The shops were closing at 6pm. They close early on a Sunday. haahahah. So then my first shop was Toymaster for to get my sis Care Bear, I had seen the other day. Then next to go and get my BIG teddy bear. I then quickly googled opening hours, for PC World. As it was closing at half 6, I said I’d go. As my GoPro didn’t come with any memory let alone Internal Memory. heeheh.

So then I struggled as ever hahaha, with my trousers falling off me with severe weight loss, and then. So I came back to my place for a brief period to get my sleeves, and to drop Marianna and my Sis 2 back at home. heheeh.

So then I headed onto my sis. I wanted to get Coffee and Cereal ie the Vegan Cereal. So I headed to Centra in Fairview. Then I headed on to my sis, again struggling with my bags. I then headed onto her. We chatted invariably. I told her of my episode of what happened to me when I was with Ailish and NOel last ngiht. She put it down to a Virus, that I may have picked up. Then I made a point of why I name my teddys after my birth family ie Mariana and my two birth sisters. Like with me I don’t even know what my Mother looks like let alone my two sisters. My sis ova here  was saying that it might be an idea to wait until am ready. However with my age, I think it’d be better if I were told EARLIER in life than if I were to wait.

Diary 22nd January 2016

Well the most anticipated day finally arrived where I was finally gonna get “Mariana” Teddy bear or whatever shape or form. hahaha.

I had asked my mate Barry to come out with me to Leixlip whereby he told me that there is a toyshop that I would like. He made it out to be a huge shop with plenty of teddy bears etc., etc.,

So then I made my way. As reported yesterday I had a puncture in my back wheel and as such I would have to walk in. Now I had aspirations and ambitions as to how to get “Marianna” home, would I need to get it delivered home or what.

On the way thou, I brought my two “gloves” which techncially are my Neck Scarfs. HOwever one of them had gone missing. As I could not in good fatih leave him behind, I had to trawl all theway back to get him. hehehe. He’s my everything. With this thou it rendered me being late for Barry. We were to meet at the BUs Stop.

When we arrived at Leixlip, We had a subway, sub. Twas delicious. They have a new Veggie platter yoke. Twas scrunmptious and of course my precious Olives. mmmm. Then came the time to bring “Marianna” home, hwoever when I arrived, it was unreal.It was a pokey of place. I was deeply disappointed. I didn’t even buy one, not one. Then I went across the road to go and have a lookise. However the disapsobiulityes of the children in the shop of which is a shop that sells to Children with INtellecutal Disabsiltyes, brought too much harsh memroeis of the Orpahange. So I just left. We then went on a lovely walk but very deep walk by means of convo. I revealed that I was a result of a rape. He’s under the illusion that women are aborting everyday regardless of the law. If the referendum is passed that it’ll just be easier. So between me saying Yes or No, I still am conflicted.

So then we got a drink of cafe. We were sitting beside a beautiful firelit fireplace. OH it was homeley. heheeheh. We were sitting relaxing and calmly. I did my usual biting while in the restauartnt bathrooms. I couldn’t hack that I thoguht I could get a clearer picture of wherther to get Yes or No.

Then we got the bus back. He got off at his stop. Got myself a teddy as a rep of my birth sis’ of wich I don’t know her name. Awwwww

Then afterwards, I relaxed for a few minutes, before I was to go out again. hahaah. So I got ready and then headed on my merry way. I chatted to Gerry for a few minutes. and litereally said hello and goodbye and then headed onto my film. heheeheh.